13 Weeks

Hey All

I know it's been a while since I've written anything but with life, Christmas, work, being a wife, my husband needing the computer and a bunch of other reasons I have my excuses.

So here we are Me and bubs and Ryan (chief photographer). Together we have made it to 13 weeks and TRIMESTER TWO!!! Woohooo!!! Is there a prize? A growing developing baby is all that we pray for.

As you can see the belly isn't any bigger. Measurment of waist stands at 88cm.

I'm feeling good. Nausea seems to have pretty much disappeared. Although I did have a random vomit a couple of mornings ago. The tiredness definitely seems to be on it's way out the door. I'm grateful for this. It really isn't much fun feeling so tired all the time.

This trimester looks set to be an exciting one. The body is certainly going to start changing in a big way which I'm looking forward to... i think. And we're set to get the BEST Christmas present ever! This friday - 14 weeks - we're having our dating scan!!! woohoo!!

So Friday we get to meet our bubs!! Amazing! Not sure what it's going to be like! Will Ryan cry? Most likely not - I've only seen him cry twice in the time I've known him - but he will get that silly grin on his face which says just as much of the emotion he feels within. I know that one well and it is entirely gorgous (ok ok enough of the gushy stuff - but that's love my friend). Me?... well I might cry... and i won't blame it on the hormones this time. I imagine I will be so overwhelmed by this new life that tears will be all I can manage. CAN'T WAIT!!!

It's been interesting over the last few weeks. I never thought buying bras could be such an emotional experience but somehow it was. This body of mine is changing, preparing, designing a different sort of me for the mum that I am to be. It's wonderful and yet a little daunting at the same time.

Hit a moment where I felt it's so hard in a way to express what i'm feeling. Harder still for Ryan to understand the inner changes of me, the emotions and all that pregnancy brings to your doorstep. But he is my husband for a reason and is everything I need to get me through this in one piece (or is that two?! ahhh).

We've just got back from a silent retreat. My director gave me something to ponder which I also found particularly helpful. It goes something like this...

Quietly absorb the truth that only God and you can see exactly what you now see; hear exactly what you now hear; feel the joy or the pain you feel; feel anxiety or tiredness you are feeling; remember the same memories as they flit across your mind. Only God knows every breath you breathe, every beat of your heart, every blink of your eyelids...

I found this really helpful. There's no way Ryan can experience everything WITH me and so sometimes although I try my best to explain it there are things and will be things that I just can't. The best bit about it... God feels it, god knows it, HE is living in me will feel every move, every ache, every joy and for that I am grateful. There is emmense peace for me in that. And I needed to hear that again.

So this Friday is where it's at. And I will do my best to get on here and report it all.

Blessings to you all.