You got me thinking

I've been thinking about you lots baby. Knowing what gender you are has been wonderful. I love talking to you like I do and just babbling on about this and that. Then it strikes me that you have no idea what I'm talking about.

You've never seen the sunshine that today is lighting up my day.
Or a beautiful sunset as that same day draws to a close.
You've never experienced the beauty of Spring or the bite of Winter.
You've never seen me or your daddy and so you just have to take my word for it when I tell you that he's the hottest daddy around.

I've been thinking about the different ways in which we're going to love you, laugh with you, hug you, nurture you. I can't wait to share our hearts with you and to pray with you and for you.
And then I realise that love is something that we're going to teach you... yet it can't really be taught so we're going to show you. WE will be LOVE to you. I hope that you can feel the warm fuzzies of our love already as we talk about you and look forward to you joining us in July.

Yip baby we're a little scared. We've never cared for something so precious and small like you. We've never had the sole responsibility of teaching you all that we know, of leading you in the way you should live a good life. So all I can promise is that baby we will try.

I found this quote today:

"All of us are born for a reason, but all of us don't discover why. Success in life has nothing to do with what you gain in life or accomplish for yourself. It's what you do for others." - Danny Thomas.

I think of all the ways we could be successful in this life. Setting up a business, discovering wealth, completing courses, degrees, masters. And yet really, truly, it all does seems to be insignificant in comparison to the opportunity that we have as the parents of our child. The opportunity to nurture our child, moulding and encouraging him/her in life. Being there in their hard times, celebrating in the good times, going out of our way to show them the true meaning of love. Whether they choose to love us back is irrelevant. When WE choose to love through thick and thin means everything.

I truly believe that the best thing that Ryan and I have to offer our children is the best relationship ever. Not with them but with each other. For them to see the love of a woman and a man, of a wife for her husband and vice versa. I think we should crave those moments when our children say "ewwwwwwww grose!" and leave the room after catching us making out. Not that we should go out of our way to embarrass them but because it's important for us to put our relationship at the forefront of our parenting. To care for each other whole heartedly. To be an example, to have the support and the strength to get through the hard stuff, to remain a lover and best friend.

Ryan is my everything. He is the sunshine in my sometimes cloudy day. He lifts me up when I'm low. He knows me more than anyone. And he loves me more than I could ever have imagined being loved. And as I feel this child move within me I can't help but think of the man I love. I can't help but think of this little life that has been created out of the love that we have for each other and when I do... it simply blows my mind.